Life hasnt been very kind to me lately. From breakdowns to breaking stuff, I'm surprised at how strong I am facing all these. Lately I've been plagued with so many problems. It all started a few months ago, after the MCOBA concert.

I have not been performing well in my work (which is so not me, since I've been known to give maximum efforts at every single things that I do) and I've been having so many problems with myself. I have no one to talk to about things, hence I keep on pushing my feelings deeper and deeper. Until a week ago, when suddenly everything comes out without me being able to control it. Love, life and basically everything. I talk to friends about things but somehow I seem to not be able to achieve anything. They basically give me advice, one after another, telling me to get a grip of myself and be who I really am. A strong and confident person. But somehow, I cant. Ive put so much of my energy into things and Im left with nothing. I have nothing to offer anymore. Nothing.

I cant think for myself, I cant do anything. When I go back home the only thing that Im able to do is sleep, and that too is on the brink of being almost impossible. When I sleep, I think about my problems and the more I think about it the more I feel helpless.

A few days ago I follow my friends to Frasers Hill, hoping that I can somehow sort things out. I manage to get some help in the love department. Thanks to Tarot. Hahah.

Hopefully things will get better. Right now Im going through a lot of changes. And I hope that I am strong enough to make decisions. Decisions that will greatly change my life.