This morning I attended my first driving class. I woke up at 7.30 and bersiap-siap, waited for the Makcik Driver who’s going to teach me how to drive a stick.
So daunting ok in the beginning.

I planned to read the driving-school book last night, but malas. I was just so tired. Dah lah the price of oil naik lagi (this time 30 cent!!). On the way back from Ikano last night, all the petrol stations were packed with drivers yang were trying to buy minyak before 12. Hmm.

So the driving class was ok. I kind of like it. You know, after 23 years of sitting and watching people drive. I kind of like the feeling of actually driving, (instead of telling my friends to go here and there). The Makcik Driver was of course very nice. She told me to take my time and takde nak jerit-jerit marah. So in two weeks time I’ll be on the road with my Kembara. Yeay!

Blankets
By Craig Thompson

Suatu ketika dahulu, when I still have extra cash to spend on books and stuff
I saw this book at Kinokuniya
I was like
Beli nanti lah
But sadly
It’s not there anymore
So sedih ok

this one's for

Mokcik Nab

and you too,

Che Mie

"But see me once and see the way I feel"

On my way to work today I sat next to a couple. I was reading when the girl offered the guy some mints. The guy took it and said,

“You should have some of that too. Your breath stinks. I think there must be something wrong with your lungs, maybe it’s your throat?”

I was like ‘What-the-fuck’

Is that a proper way to treat a girl?

He was ugly and she was ok.

And I was wondering what the hell is this girl doing with that asshole.

I continued reading and the guy mentioned something bout some disease,

“Who knows, maybe I have HIV. I don’t really know. You know I had a lot of partners before you.”

The girl was dumfounded.

“Why don’t you go for a check up?” She asked.

“Why should I? Besides, its too late already.”

If I were much bigger and well… stronger, I would have beaten the daylight out off him.

How can anybody say that?

I guess some people are just born stupid.

a friend who won't betray



enjoy
Freshman by The Verve

Recently, while I was searching for my Batch's webpage, I came across a few pics taken in March 2005 in Kuala Kangsar. It was taken during the centennial celebration in MCKK.

So here are the pics.

I was still in college when I attended the event. My lecturer, Anwar Salleh (class of 84) was there too.
We were kinda excited few days prior to the trip to Kuala Kangsar. hah

The pics can be found here (http://fqrl.fotopages.com/)

I've tried uploading the pics. But it didn't work

A friend of mine told me a few days ago about this new Indonesian movie. Tajuknye 'Realita Cinta dan Rock and Roll'. I dont really like to watch movies nowadays since my life is soo hectic. But after checking out the website, tetiba rasa cam I have to watch this movie.

Homoeroticism has made its presence in arts since the dawn of civilization (I think so). Images of men, saints and deities are portrayed in very sensual ways. One of the reasons is because of the fact that people are more aroused by things seen than heard (Fra Andrea Pozzi, I think). So most of the images or sculptures done in the period prior to Reformation (after Romanesque) and Post-Reformation are created to evoke a sense deeper than written words could achieved.

A few noted homoerotic paintings/images and sculptures

The Death of Hyacinthos by Jean Broc
The Warren Cup
The Current D&G print ads


So anyway:

Here are some of Homoerotic movies that I like

I: Y Tu Mama Tambien
II: The Dreamers
III: Almodovar’s Things (Bad Education and All about My Mother)
IV: Nicholas Nickleby
V: Brideshead Revisited (ade Jeremy Irons)

So tengoklah this movie

This clip was created after Tom Cruise’s inteview with Oprah where he almost died of ‘sawan babi’

The Oprah Winfrey’s part was edited. Her clip was taken from her interview with James Frey, author (liar!) of that book. ‘A million little pieces’.

Enjoy!

Life hasnt been very kind to me lately. From breakdowns to breaking stuff, I'm surprised at how strong I am facing all these. Lately I've been plagued with so many problems. It all started a few months ago, after the MCOBA concert.

I have not been performing well in my work (which is so not me, since I've been known to give maximum efforts at every single things that I do) and I've been having so many problems with myself. I have no one to talk to about things, hence I keep on pushing my feelings deeper and deeper. Until a week ago, when suddenly everything comes out without me being able to control it. Love, life and basically everything. I talk to friends about things but somehow I seem to not be able to achieve anything. They basically give me advice, one after another, telling me to get a grip of myself and be who I really am. A strong and confident person. But somehow, I cant. Ive put so much of my energy into things and Im left with nothing. I have nothing to offer anymore. Nothing.

I cant think for myself, I cant do anything. When I go back home the only thing that Im able to do is sleep, and that too is on the brink of being almost impossible. When I sleep, I think about my problems and the more I think about it the more I feel helpless.

A few days ago I follow my friends to Frasers Hill, hoping that I can somehow sort things out. I manage to get some help in the love department. Thanks to Tarot. Hahah.

Hopefully things will get better. Right now Im going through a lot of changes. And I hope that I am strong enough to make decisions. Decisions that will greatly change my life.