Tuesday, December 27, 2005 |
Christmas. A time to celebrate, eat all the turkey you can and well gulp down those deliciously fattening eggnog.
I took the day off on Sunday to sit for my driving test. It was easy. I got 49/50. I thought I was going to fail as I kept on confusing one answer with another. But thankfully I passed. I’m just dreading the ‘driving test’, which is to take place next week.
Went back home and had a thought about my life right now. Everything seems to be in place. Or at least some are. While the others are still waiting for their moment to shine. I couldn’t help but think whether this is how I wanted everything to be despite the cheers from my friends and the ‘oohs’ and ‘ahhs’ from others. I kept on asking myself these questions
“Is this me? Or is this just another wall to save my ass from all those vicious architects and whatnots out there?”
I analyze my the plans that I made since I left college and realize that
1. I hate people who tell me what to do and what not. Because seriously I know all that
2. I hate it when people think that I’m stupid/still learning and what not. Because I am not. Try and ask me to do the things I do best. Then you’ll know.
3. Erm…well two is enough.
I fell asleep thinking about this. When I woke up it was already 6.00pm. I went down to the living room and watched TV. I was feeling really, really tired. Suddenly I missed koleq. I didn’t know what started this feeling but I just felt like going back to the year 2000 and lived all those memories again. At 6.30 I started imagining stuff that I would do if I was back in koleq. 6.30 shower, followed by Maghrib. Hmmm. Life was so much easy back then. You wake up in the morning, you go to class, prep, lunch dinner and sleep. You don’t have to worry about anything else.
I read Irfan’s (my batch’s president) blog a few days ago and felt like I was a tiny speckle in this whole wide universe. I know I am but something just kind of make it even more obvious.
I took the day off on Sunday to sit for my driving test. It was easy. I got 49/50. I thought I was going to fail as I kept on confusing one answer with another. But thankfully I passed. I’m just dreading the ‘driving test’, which is to take place next week.
Went back home and had a thought about my life right now. Everything seems to be in place. Or at least some are. While the others are still waiting for their moment to shine. I couldn’t help but think whether this is how I wanted everything to be despite the cheers from my friends and the ‘oohs’ and ‘ahhs’ from others. I kept on asking myself these questions
“Is this me? Or is this just another wall to save my ass from all those vicious architects and whatnots out there?”
I analyze my the plans that I made since I left college and realize that
1. I hate people who tell me what to do and what not. Because seriously I know all that
2. I hate it when people think that I’m stupid/still learning and what not. Because I am not. Try and ask me to do the things I do best. Then you’ll know.
3. Erm…well two is enough.
I fell asleep thinking about this. When I woke up it was already 6.00pm. I went down to the living room and watched TV. I was feeling really, really tired. Suddenly I missed koleq. I didn’t know what started this feeling but I just felt like going back to the year 2000 and lived all those memories again. At 6.30 I started imagining stuff that I would do if I was back in koleq. 6.30 shower, followed by Maghrib. Hmmm. Life was so much easy back then. You wake up in the morning, you go to class, prep, lunch dinner and sleep. You don’t have to worry about anything else.
I read Irfan’s (my batch’s president) blog a few days ago and felt like I was a tiny speckle in this whole wide universe. I know I am but something just kind of make it even more obvious.